Life is amazing, life is great, blah blah blah. Holiday season's totally making me feel cheerful, and saying nice things to people I usually don't say anything to. So what the fuck is this piece of lame feel shitty emotion doing in my head.
:( Emo post about a girl I guess.
I pretty much feel like I don't know how much I can like you. I feel like if I show you too much that I like you I'll scare you away. Its either that, or you're just playing with me and I'm completely eating it up whether I'm aware of it or not. I love playing along, even when I know. And against you, I know I'll lose. I mean, that is, if we're even playing a game... haha
This is just an awesome insecure internal battle. I don't know what to do with myself. Some great shit, feeling great during the holidays with nothing really dragging you down, except your own insecurity.
Because, for all I know, this shit's all in my head. Just something I created to feel shitty about.
I think I need some security? And maybe I just realllllllllllllllly really like this girl, And want it to be mutual.
What I really want, is to just let go of it all, and just go with it all. (and that applies to so much)
And way to go on listening to ATDI! Best thing I've done all day :)
I wish I could just write down everything that was bothering me, just so I could figure out what it all was and try to come up with a solution.