Log in

1. · give · it · a · name

I just want to say everything.

Recent Entries · Archive · Friends · Profile

* * *
First of all, fuck myself. I'm not doing even close enough to doing everything (that I want to be doing) in my life that I need to be doing. Just to get my life in order kind of shit. I fucking smoke too much weed, I don't come home enough, and I don't organize my money. All things I can take care of i'd just fucking do it. I'm sick of not doing it.

My ___ is a fucking bitch sometimes, but she does everything for us. SHe's messed up my life in ways I can't get into, but she's always gonna be there me, she's always gonna take care of me, even if it's her way and I don't agree with it, she'll be there. I love her. And I'm a fucking bitch for not putting enough effort back. She needs help.

Girls, I don't even fucking know. I thought it was a good idea keep my head focussed on a keeper, but i was never sure if I would be right for the otherside. Nothing was wrong with this one, that's why all the guys love her. Its more about me being right for her haha. And I knew it at certain points, but then thought, no I could be good enough. But I don't think I am, and she obviously doesn't. I don't have anything against not feelin me, because that's just how people are. You can't just like someone, just because the other person does. But fuckkkkkkkkk, i wanted it pretty bad, and tried to hold on, but I'm over it now. No need on dragging it on. I wish I just didn't fuckin Dish out 300 bucks for that shit. seriously. Its not that I'm cheap, but I would have rather put that in the bank, that I owe fucking 200 dollars. There you have it.

and fuckkkkkkkkkkk, the girls I didn't even try to talk to, just cause I wanted to wait a little.. I wasted my own time I guess thinking on this ONE.

And Idk If I'm just a stupid bitch or not, whining, insecure or not, but my friends, most of them, irk me in little ways I don't understand!

Dude nombre 1, I have a pretty good idea of how you think, no I don't know exactly, but I have a good idea. I know when you'd be down for shit, and I see when you make stupid excuses not to do them, that cause problems because then plans are not working out, and then when the last minutes are ticking away, before its ALMOST too late to get back into whatever, you're like SHIT LETS DO IT. Why the fuck do you make stupid excuses not to do something when later on in the day you're %100. That just a whole bunch of nonsense to deal with. Fuck that man, make up your mind more, think shit through. You're a smart guy nonetheless, I hope once your family cuts you off with money, if that happens, you do great.

Dude nombre 2, I don't get you, but then I do. I as a matter of fact understand you. But that's why we live here, to not be like the people we left. I mean keep our heritage and shit yeah, but don't be closed minded fucks on that rock. Whatever, you do stupid things sometimes, but you're really on your shit for the most part. I really respect that.

I honestly don't even know. Do I expect to much from people? I don't really get mad at people, irritated maybe, but seriously, common sense guys.

I hate thinking about how I'd be in someone elses situation. Whether there situation is better or worse, I should be able to do what I want regardless of my situation. I just need to work hard enough to get over any obstacles in my life.

I don't even know how to say everything. I can't even say everything. You couldn't even hear everything.
Current Mood:
sad sad
* * *